2 more days to hols...

am exhausted by many tings...
am hurt by more...
am sadden by many...
am happy by some too...

am i crazy? am i stupid? am i bad?
all is a "yes" to those qns...
it's true...

i'm crazy for e fact dat i'm owaes having many tots...
i'm crazy for e fact dat i do many wrong tings dat hurt others, at e same tym ppl do tings dat hurt me...
she is angry when i'm rude to her, she tinks i'm ungrateful for tings she does for me...

i'm stupid becos my family members say so...
i'm e one wif e poorest results at here at hm...
i'm e one hu owaes creates trouble for them...
i'm e one hu's owaes called "stupid" here at hm without fail...
i nv fail to do wrong tings, i guess...

i'm bad for doing soo many tings dat ppl reflect to me n say dat i'm dis, i'm dat...
i've had enough
i will nv wanna talk to u again, hw i wish i could do dat...
but can i?
i'm talkative, can i stand not talking to ppl?

actually yes, becos i used to be anti-guys, so i will not take e initiative to talk to others,
or rather, i only talk to gals, for dat matter...
nonetheless, wad r guys?

r thr any good guys out thr?
hw can one be considered a good guy?
will any1 out thr dare to tell me dat u're a good guy?
oh pls, for goodness sake...
den wad will be e definition of "good guy"?

is thr a clear-cut definition for it?

all guys r e same...
dis is true when almost all watch P o R l \ l
so obvious was it is rite?

anw, enough of dat crap...
let's move on to another topic...

inferior
self-appearance can make ppl feel good abt themselves...
but is dat owaes true?
wad abt those hu do not haf good looks?

i do no dat looks aint all dat matters...
but still...
it does play a part when tings happen...
was watching 变奏曲 last nite...
wif a scar on a beatiful gal's [dawn] face, tings will nv be e same again...
looks does matter...
however, dat's only becos she was a beatiful gal but lost e beauty...

wad abt ppl without beatiful looks in e first place?
has any1 seen b4 any?
probably a yes...
definitely too...

imperfection is soo bloody obvious to humans eyes...
thus, inferiority is 1 ting dat harms e world...

lastly, i'm exhausted over many tings... wun tell any1 abt...